Tonight we fed the missionaries. I kept it simple- rice, grilled chicken, orange dream salad (cottage cheese, cool whip, orange jellow, and mandarin oranges- NO, I did not eat!!), and green salad. I cooked regular rice for everyone else, and cooked brown rice for myself. Yum- with butter & salt & pepper. I can have unsalted butter... not sure why, but the Dr. said.
The kicker was dessert. I'm still struggling a bit. No, make that a lot. I let Janessa make Spice cupcakes with cream cheese frosting, and they also had vanilla ice cream. Talk about WILL POWER. Holy cow. I keep telling myself how many thousands of people choose to eat the way I am right now, but it doesn't make it any easier. It's simply torture. I want to make healthy eating a new way of life, but it's hard to imagine getting over my love of sweets.
Journaling like this helps, though. I know that I have to report back, and I'm determined to succeed.
Another excitement to report about- I was able to run 8-miles today!!! I wasn't sure if I would have enough energy because I've cut out so many carbs, but I just took it nice & slow & I did fine! Phew. That is a stress to me. I'm not going to be able to do the Top of Utah marathon that I planned to do in September, but I'm grateful for my health & ability to still run for health. I just invision myself running my races next year feeling lighter, stronger, and with more energy. All this agony will pay off! (right?:)