Yes, I'm being a bit melodramatic about being in mourning. But it just hit me. Tears. I won't be running my race tomorrow.
I signed up for the Top of Utah Marathon, and was really excited to be working on getting a sub-4 hr marathon. I created a training plan on Runner's World.com that told me how fast to train each time, and it was much different than how I trained for my first marathon in May. I was staying right on track (even with the speed workouts!), and then my stupid appendicitis hit on the 4th of July.
I was planning to get back on track after 4-weeks off, but then I met with a different doctor & found out about my candida issues (which I'm sure had something to do with the appendicitis!). I knew that it was time to take care of the problem, and in doing that I would have to cut out most carbs, which are a main source of fueling when you're running long distances. I knew that I'd have to cut back my distances, and that my running would be affected.
Right now I'm in "maintain" mode, where I'm doing Monday/Wed/Friday/Saturday: 4 miles/4 miles/4 miles/6 miles, because I don't want to lose my running base. At first even that amount was terrible, but it's starting to feel better. It's such a high for me to be outside running in the crisp morning air. I LOVE fall running!
I thought I had come to terms with my running situation, but I just read a Facebook post from a friend who is running the TOU tomorrow. I wished her luck, and then she wrote back and said she wished I was there. That little comment made the tears come. Man, I love to run. I wish I was there, too. Hopefully next year I'll have my body in order and I'll be lighter, stronger, and faster, running my next marathon. Can't wait!